Wednesday, 5 March 2014

I set my face to the Lord God, to seek by prayer and petitions, with fasting and sackcloth and ashes. I prayed to the Lord my God, and made confession, and said,“Oh, Lord, the great and dreadful God, who keeps covenant and loving kindness with those who love him and keep his commandments, we have sinned, and have dealt perversely, and have done wickedly, and have rebelled, even turning aside from your precepts and from your ordinances. We haven’t listened to your servants the prophets, who spoke in your name to our kings, our princes, and our fathers, and to all the people of the land. Dan 9:3-6

I turn
I turn to Christ
I turn back to Christ
I repent of turning away from God
I repent that I do not feel giddy,
for my turning is not fast and furious
but subtle and insidious, 
thoughts and actions -  carelessly, recklessly, unthinkingly, surround me.
Like post-party detritus.
Containing treasures, but on their own worthless.
Lord, I return to you, aware that without you, without the Holy Spirit guiding me, I have no purpose.
An Ecclesiastes evangelist, analysing, dissecting, rejecting.
Longing for the riches and power of the Good News Gospel.

Lord, I turn back to you.
I repent of all that I have done and said which did not reflect your glory,
I draw back to you.
Mark me with the ash cross of repentance.
Fill me with your Holy Spirit,
Equip me with wisdom - should this be possible!
Strengthen me, when doubts and fears assail
Give me ears to hear your word,
and the determination of Daniel
Help me to focus on you.